Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Hot Fudge and Wedding Rings
The last time I was at work some of the kids decided to play "ice cream shop" together, as the play room that I work in has a rope jungle gym fort with a little window that just BEGS to be a pretend ice cream shop ordering window. It's so fun to watch them pretend - the kids lining up for their ice cream.
"I'd like a chocolate ice cream with rainbow sprinkles" "Ok, that will be $20 please."
And then they get silly: "Haha! I gave you ice cream with worms in it!" or "I let the dog lick it first!"
And then I hear this scenario: Child one orders a hot fudge sundae with lots of whipped cream. "Ok, coming right up!" Child two scrambles to "make" the sundae with lots of care and dramatic flair. "Here you go! It's your lucky day because it's for free!" Child one takes the pretend ice cream and turns around to leave. Child two says, "Wait!! You forgot your change!! Here's a thousand dollars! Thanks, come again!"
Three weeks ago I was water-tubing and lost both my engagement ring and wedding band in the lake. I was devastated and I can't stop blaming myself for it even now. I know they are only things, and that the marriage is way more important than the tokens that represent it. But I just ache knowing that the rings I received from my husband and have loved for the last two or more years are impossible to get back! Of course we don't have the money (at all!) right now to go out and simply replace the rings. I'm trying to find more hours at my current job and am looking for a new job now because of our financial situation and in some meager hope to start saving a little here and there to put toward a new set of rings.
But wouldn't it be nice if I could just go get a free hot fudge sundae and get back $1000? Hahaha! I'd get ice cream every day for that deal!
It's so easy for me and Dan to buy into the lie that if we only had more money, we'd be more secure. If we had better jobs, we'd be more free in a way. If we could live more comfortably, we would be more happy. If we weren't so poor, we'd be better off. Certainly, if we had what we feel we deserve as college graduates and hard-working citizens we would be able to afford new wedding bands. If only, if only, if only....
And yet, our needs HAVE been met - and we have been able to live abundantly and comfortably. I'm not sure how our finances work out each month, but they do! We have been so blessed. We never have to go without much - there is always food in our kitchen, blankets on our bed, a sturdy roof over our heads, and not one but two cars that we have been able to repair because funds come in at just the right time. Sometimes things do get pretty tight, but we make it through. And God is faithful. Always.
Let your conduct be without covetousness; and be content with what you have: for He has said, I will never leave you, nor forsake you. – Hebrews 13:5
But godliness with contentment is great gain. For we brought nothing into this world, and it is certain that we can carry nothing out. – 1Timothy 6:6-7
Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus. -- 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
Posted by -stephanie- at 12:11 PM